Where am I today? Where I am today.

Does it really matter? YES! Since my last post I finished the 7 day Shaun T Week! it was great  – I posted everyday after my workout so I became accountable to my followers. Who I am kidding, to myself.  Shaun’s workout program is awesome and the great thing about it was that it moved fast! Seriously by the time I wanted to quit it was on to the next move. And I was never too sore to do the next day’s workout. I felt great and looked forward to my morning workouts. That was a first! I saw my mother in law after the first week and she made a comment that I looked like I was shrinking – SCORE! So yes, I could see that my body was changing, but more importantly I was feeling different. Like a good different! So different that I went shopping for dresses and had the confidence to even wear them 🙂 See my NSV – now that’s confidence! For those of you who know me – I have a hate-hate relationship with my legs. Um ok I just realized how short the white one is. YIKES!  I think half of my confidence came from my mystic tan because we can all agree that fat looks better tanned. LOL!

Elsame

So, now lets talk about my WW program…WEELLLLL…the week I was doing Shaun T, I rocked it, however, then I had to spend 5 nights at the JW Marriott in Los Angeles for a big Wella Trendvision hair show.  We ate and drank EVERY. SINGLE. NIGHT.  Confession; I didn’t weigh in today. I just couldn’t, I couldn’t face the fact that I had 1 really great week and then a bad one. Plus, I’m still on a high about wearing dresses. So now I’m back on track and starting Shaun T week AGAIN! Details to come…

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rediscovering old feelings

I just got back from a 2-day vacay in Las Vegas and had some eye-opening feelings that I once had a LOOOOONNNNGGGGG time ago. I’ll probably be all over the place with this post so like always…try to keep up! I was in LA from Sunday to Wed for work. Most out-of-town business trips have alcohol involved. Yup that again..alcohol; it’s a great way to unwind after having a stressful few days. What I need to remember is that working our has the same great benefits 🙂   I was determined that when I got home I’d go grocery shopping for all the right foods.  So I went to Trader Joe’s stocked up of veggies and fruits and was looking forward to getting back on track. THEN, the husband called and said we need to get away for the weekend, let’s go to Vegas.  “Ok” I said, and that night we were on our way. So far, so good, right? Got to Vegas around 3 am and slept until 10 am Saturday. Then we headed to the pool. Ahh yes that dreaded pool… water…bathing suit. I’m not one to feel insecure, however, I did feel that way when I looked around and saw women who were bigger than me sporting 2-piece bathing suits. I’m the last one to judge anyone, but there were a few women that probably should not be wearing a 2 -piece, however, I found myself jealous and admiring them for having the confidence to be so comfortable in their bodies. Who knows, maybe these women work out and just feel so good about themselves? Maybe they just don’t give a crap? We all have our own inner struggles, but these women…not a care in the world. Just loving life showing their appreciation to their Creator for giving them the body they were given. Secondly, throughout the weekend I couldn’t help but think of the time in my mid-20’s when OPI was about to go on a cruise, I knew of all the eating that would be involved, so I made sure I had a plan when I got back. I brought WW to OPI; it was my safe haven.  I also remembered that when I use to weigh 180 people thought I was about 150 because all I did was 20 min of cardio and lifted weights everyday. I felt smaller and great all the time! Why did I forget that? How did I forget how great I feel after a good sweat? How was I motivation for others? I like to look at before and after pics on Instagram and that got me thinking…IT IS TIME!!!!!!!! It’s time to take the now pictures and (re)start my journey to in progress pictures. I don’t like to use the word “after” in pics because I will always be a work in progress. My life is a winding road and I just hope that I can get back on track. I want to feel better about myself and I know that I need to make myself first. I’ll be traveling quite a bit this month, and every hotel does have a fitness center – READ – NO EXCUSES! I also need to remember that this change will not happen overnight, BUT I know that it will happen every minute that I keep track of my WW points and exercise. Now, if you’ll excuse me, I need to take a picture and workout.  Have a great week! Muah!

Would you look at that.

Down 2.2 lbs! Happy? Yes. However, I need to not get cocky and think that I GOT THIS… well, do I know that tracking points leads to weight loss, then one must ask themselves – “why don’t I track more often?  Yeah, why don’t I? Maybe after eating 1 or more high point meals I choose not to be real with myself? Could I be lazy? Maybe not enough time? Well after much thought, I think I don’t want to face the truth or trust that one high point meal doesn’t have to derail my progress.  Food for thought.

Back to my week, started out great, no buts to insert. Met a girlfriend for a beer on Saturday, you know I’m so blessed to have friends who just want to catch up over a beer (which I tracked). My husband and I walked a 5k in Vista, strike that HE MADE ME RUN 2.5 miles!  I was so happy that he even wanted to go, so I ran for him!! My reward…I got his beer ticket (which I tracked).  Went out for lunch and then again for dinner. (tracking). I figure if i can make it through the weekend without using any of my weekly 35, then I’ve done good, which I did! 🙂 Now yes I’m happy with my weight loss this week, BUT I must say, I didn’t get to workout for 4 days because I was so sore from running. Monday, my girlfriend came over to enjoy some vino and snacks, I made sure I pre-counted what I was going to eat and drink. All low points foods too. THEN we decide to hit the local winery…again, I tracked a glass and a half. We did go out for dinner to a Mexican restaurant, OH BOY this is where my hand goes on automatic pilot into the chip basket, no fear I had my daily points available, and only had 4 shrimp wrapped in (crispy) bacon for my meal. SUCCESS! I stayed within my points all week and there you go!  So, I’m doing good so far and back on track!

Putting it out there.

This is hard. Not really sure what part is. Could be the lack of tracking this week; I do so good on Sat and Sun, wait no I do really good on Mon through Fri, but I still find myself celebrating on the weekends. REALLY like I deserve (read need) to celebrate for weighing in?  I did weigh-in last week and was up 2 lbs, I blamed it on my monthly visit and that I wasn’t wearing my weigh-in clothes. Then I was off to Los Angeles from Mon to Thur and not to blame hairdressers but lets just say they know how to party. In case you don’t know I work for OPI Nail products and we became sister partners with Wella hair (Sebastian, Nioxin, Kadus) which means our partying skills just went up a notch. We started the week off with a celebration of life on Monday, this is where I learned that I love patron and fresh lime juice with club soda NEW COCKTAIL! and same amount of points as my vodka soda! Then the rest of the week was consumed by more alcohol. I start the day off great with egg whites and fruit, I do great a lunch and then dinner comes! NOT to mention I didn’t do the most important thing – TRACK! AHHHH I knew I was missing something! So there you go in the end I still need to track to lose weight. My husband and I were suppose to walk a 5K then he grabbed me by the hand we ended up running 70% of it! Yes, I’m sore, he isn’t. We proceeded the day with going out to eat for lunch and dinner. Ok, enough already, if it’s one thing I will do the next 3 weeks is limited the amount of times I go out to eat. I literally gain weight the minute I walk out the door! who’s with me on that? New week…new time to start AGAIN!

I have a secret…

tracking works! I have actually managed to lose 3 lbs this week AND I was traveling from Sunday to Thursday. Yup, I was in Miami and tracked every single day! I even has 2 cocktails every night, I didn’t starve and I worked out every morning. I’m really in shock and had a revelation that I need to make WW work for me. One meal at a time and track the good the bad and the ugly, which I did! I walked on the treadmill every morning, then enjoyed a great breakfast of fruit and eggs every morning. ANNNNNNDDD I discovered PILON; Cuban coffee. I’m in love, in fact, I went to Publix and purchased the instant brand. I feel good. I knew that when I stepped on that scale this morning I just knew that it was going to go down.  I would have been happy with 1 lb. So now the game is on…I have to keep on tracking! And you know what? I had a great time on my trip, because I didn’t put food first and always kept in mind that it was just a meal and I could still enjoy myself without eating fried foods.  The struggle is real…every single day, strike that, every single meal. So, now I’m on to something and it feels good. I’m working towards that feeling of being able to go shopping and feel good about trying clothes on; not to mention the size 10 Banana Republic jeans (thanks Dawn) that I haven’t worn in about 2 years, okay honestly, 3 years. Honesty – with myself (and you)!

Still Simply Filling!

SF I’m slowly realizing that no matter what program I choose to do whether Points or Simply Filling, WW doesn’t work unless I work it. Really? So I’ve been on Simply Filling for about 4 weeks and sadly I have not seen the results I wanted, STRIKE THAT the results that I have seen are a direct result of the work I have put into it. What a concept. Don’t get me wrong I really do love the simply filling plan, I have been eating some great food and love the options that are offered, I especially love https://www.facebook.com/Simplyfilling there are great recipes posted daily. I don’t; find myself eating ALOT per se, however, eating out is still an issue, it’s the chips! So, I am now making a commitment to myself, to be true and track regardless of the points.

One more thing, I haven’t been able to workout for almost 2 weeks! I pulled my groin and any physical workout aggravates my upper thigh. I’ve been down a little because as you all know working out is key to losing weight. I need to be extra mindful of the foods that I am eating. Who am I kidding, it really is all about going out to eat. That’s it. Simple. And I better start this minute because my size 10 jeans are feeling a lil tight. AND I am not about to go shopping! Wish me luck! Muah!

Thank God that’s over with!

FINALLY! I’m done celebrating my 40th birthday! Let’s see where did I leave off…oh yes, got back from Seattle. THEN, it was time to celebrate with my family. There’s a neighborhood Mexican restaurant that my husband and I love, so we decided to meet up with my parents, my 2 brothers with their families. Nothing in this world gives me more joy than to be with my nieces and nephews. THEN, my girlfriend and I went wine tasting all weekend, and you know that also includes EATING. GEEZ, enough already! On a good note, I did manage to squeeze in a few workouts. Look, I didn’t go crazy but ever since I weighed in at 158 on March 29, I just haven’t managed to stay there. Give me credit, read the previous post.

I just finished my finals this weekend!  So, no more excuses!  I’ll have all the time in the world to workout. Here’s the thing, I do workout however, sometimes I’m not present, does that make sense? I go through the motions, but I need to learn to concentrate on connecting my body and my mind.  I also need to be better prepared, make better food choices and of course nothing works without tracking.

Notice I never mentioned anything about how much I went up…”UP” what you did? Yeah, so what big deal. I’m 40! MUAH!

wine tasting lunch beer